“All you have to do is meet me half way. All you have to do is say yes.”
—Owen Hunt, Grey’s Anatomy. (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
April 2010
“After all, computers crash, people die, relationships fall apart. The best we can do is breathe and reboot.”
—Carrie, Sex and the city (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
“Oh, your love is a symphony — all around me, running through me.”
—Switchfoot (via quote-book)
“I didn’t know why I was going to cry, but I knew that if anybody spoke to me or looked at me too closely the tears would fly out of my eyes and the sobs would fly out of my throat and I’d cry for a week. I could feel the tears brimming and sloshing like water in a glass that is unsteady and too full.”
—The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath (via quote-book)
it all boils down to these two options: i either have extremely irregular heartbeat (note to self: get body check-up), or i’m in love. because my heart; it pounds like i’m on a roller-coaster ride, at the drop. it’s amazing, really, this adrenaline rush.
yes, i’m aware that this isn’t a morally correct act.
surely, there are more admirable situations to be in instead of this: falling in love with another guy who isn’t your boyfriend. perhaps not exactly falling in love, just … very infatuated.
do i feel guilty?
do i?
…
no. i think i just woke up one day and realized, i honestly couldn’t give a shit anymore. for real. it’s such a complicated love-hate relationship with A; it’s been so for nearly four years. i don’t know how i arrived at this point. i don’t care. and the truth is, i’m just not happy anymore. i’m not happy being with an abusive, controlling and over-possessive person, who isn’t willing to support me through anything. i’m not happy being with a guy who puts me down all the time. i’m not happy that i’ve put up with all his shit and that i’ve developed a nearly superhuman capability of being patient with him. i’m not happy that he lies, and he brags, and he has complete disregard for anything, everything, and everyone important in my life. i’m not happy that he’s just so demanding, so insecure about everything. i’m not happy. period.
it’s just not working out.
i should have seen this from the start, but i guess some things are just … tough to let go.
for nearly four years, i have given this man everything.
i am drained.
over the course of this heart-breaking, exhausting relationship, there have been many other guys. some i’ve had fun with, others i’ve rejected outright. but never have i found myself actually falling. and this feeling, it’s amazing :) i want so much to let this go, and maybe work on my current relationship … but i don’t have the willpower to.
i’m not looking for a relationship with The Other Guy. he’s great-looking, and fun, and easy to be with, and exactly my type — but he’s also a player. i’m a realist; i don’t have expectations for this. this guy swears up and down that he’s truly and hopelessly in love with me; he sends me poems; is interested in getting to know me; and … he pours his heart and soul out to me. and i know he probably doesn’t mean half the things he says, but i don’t care. really, i don’t. all he is, is a great distraction, and i’m not looking for anything … stable. it’s fun.
what do i do now?
well.
the boyf, or ex-bf?; i don’t know. we’re not talking. if this is a break-up, then please god let it stay this way.
the Other Guy?
may just be meeting him later.
:)
“I feel sorry for the person who can’t get genuinely excited about his work. Not only will he never be satisfied, but he will never achieve anything worthwhile.”
—Walter Chrysler (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
“I suddenly realized it. The way to get over you isn’t by hooking up with some random guy, or pretending like we didn’t happen. You and I loved each other, and then you broke my heart. I’ve been doing everything possible not to face that fact. I’m gonna kiss somebody someday, and when I do, it’ll be for me.”
—Blair Waldorf. (via fuckyeahleightonmeester)
“Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.”
—Kurt Cobain (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
“She comes and goes, and no one knows she’s slipping through my hands. She’s always buzzing just like neon, neon, neon, neon. Who knows how long, how long, how long she can go before she burns away?”
—Neon by John Mayer (via weallseekthetruth) (via quote-book)
“Bottom line is that couples that are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else. But the big difference is they don’t let it take them down.”
—Scrubs (via kari-shma) (via thehappiestboy)
“Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught.”
—Oscar Wilde (via quote-book)
“Happiness consists more in the small conveniences of pleasures that occur every day, than in great pieces of good fortune that happen but seldom to a man in the course of his life.”
—Benjamin Franklin (via weallseekthetruth) (via quote-book)
“How much of human life is lost in waiting.”
—Ralph Waldo Emerson (via elicec) (via quote-book)
Stupid Politician
unbelievable. stupid racist dumbfuck politician! how does he sleep at night?
http://aminchenor.blogspot.com/2009/05/tuntutan-buat-kerajaan-malaysia.html
“Once upon a time there was a crooked tree and a straight tree. And they grew next to each other. And every day the straight tree would look at the crooked tree and he would say, “You’re crooked. You’ve always been crooked and you’ll continue to be crooked. But look at me! Look at me!” said the straight tree. He said, “I’m tall and I’m straight.” And then one day the lumberjacks came into the forest and looked around, and the manager in charge said, “Cut all the straight trees.” And that crooked tree is still there to this day, growing strong and growing strange.”
—Kneller, Wristcutters: A Love Story (via movieoftheday)
“I have grown to love secrecy. It seems to be the one thing that can make modern life mysterious or marvellous to us. The commonest thing is delightful if one only hides it. When I leave town now I never tell my people where I am going. If I did, I would lose all my pleasure. It is a silly habit, I dare say, but somehow it seems to bring a great deal of romance into one’s life.”
—The Picture of Dorian Gray (via quote-book)
“I was just thinking about you.”
—Cross My Mind by Jill Scott (via lyricallysomething)
“I am only responsible for my own heart, you offered yours up for the smashing my darling. Only a fool would give out such a vital organ.”
—Anais Nin (via colporteur) (via quote-book)
“If you love someone, set them free; if you have to stalk them they probably weren’t yours in the first place.”
—Sandra Bullock from All About Steve (via quote-book)
